freakydeadkitty

lolz sorry wanted a weird title hahaha. Lolz so ya as of lately some things have been going on. I haven't really gotten to talk to any of my friends for a while because I've been working. Ya thats right ladies and gents I got a new job. I work at cinema1. It's so awsome, I love my job, working there is so much fun. I thought it would be a good idea for me to work with something I'm interested in. I'm addicted to movies and to work there is awsome because now I see a million movies that I wanna buy, plus the nightmare before christmas stuff is a bonus. I get 20% off which makes it all worth while. Anywayz I gotta go. byez.

I'm tired of little fat bitches thinking they can mouth off at me, Mommy and daddy aren't gonna save your ass all the time and your loser friends can't touch me. You think your cool shit because you go to stupid little childish tea parties and everything, if it wasn't for mom you'd have no job and in turn no friends. Your nothing but a pathetic loser, at least the jobs I've had I got on my own. Compared to me your nothing but a fat loser thats going nowhere in life. Congrats enjoy that fat ass.

Yay it's halloween and I'm so excited, I have to finish decorating my house and get the candy ready and put on my costume and light my pumpkin and do a little dance. YAWOO LITTLE DANCE!!!!

Hey all I figured I'd leave an entry seeming on how I haven't left one in foreber..... hmmmm.... so ya I like this song I'm listening to, it's called I almost married my girlfriend the lesbian by peppermint creeps, it's a really funny song, you guys should download it and get a laugh hahaha. ok I'm done, byez. *mucho huggles*

Yay. I've been thinking abuot starting my own clothing line. I put my tag on everything else so why not clothes, I've already made some rough scetches and everything, I've also already tagged some of my own clothes. I know it'll be hard work but I also know that it'd be worth it to get my own line out there, clothes are a huge part in my life and I've already made a few of my own so why not start making them for the whole world to wear. I think it's be awsome, my tag would be on every peice of clothing and someday maybe my stuff would be sold all the way in australia, that'd be kool. Anywayz this is my day dream for the day. see ya.

So today I finally took my G1 test and passed!!!! yay, I thought I failed but I actually passed. I also started driving today! I was so excited I got to drive... there were barely any cars around so it wasn't all that bad. I had alot of fun today and this weekend I'm leaving london. I'm so excited to be driving, I can't wait til tomorrow so I can do it again. Anywayz I'm done. Go me I'm the bomb yawoo

Ok so no job but on the plus side I'm going for my G1 test on tuesday and I can't wait, plus after that on labour day weekend I'm going out of town. My mom and I are going to go and see my grandparents. I haven't seen them in ages and I'm sure my grandmother is going to be talking shit about my tattoo's and trying to convince me that I'm not actually bi-sexual, "it's just a phase" she says. Anywayz I'm going to bed because I have to be up early tomorrow. c-ya. P.S. I have a new word, everything is juicy. Watch out paris hilton my word is gonna be way more famous then thats hot! lmfao

so today I went to an interview at a place called icing and I'm pretty sure that I got the job. I dunno but she said that she had other interviews but she was tired of waiting and that she'd be calling me on either saturday or sunday so I think I got it but I'm not to sure. I also went out and got my nails done today which was awsome. I'm so hoping for theis job at icing. I dunno what do you guys think? do you guys think that she meant I got it? I think she did but then again I don't wanna get my hopes so high up and then have them knocked down. anywayz today has been a really good day for me. I had an awsome interview, got pampered and looked wicked awsome. Anywayz thats all for now I'll let you guys know how everything goes on another post.

This year sux my balls. First I lose my grandfather in january, bad start. Then I lose my best friend and at the same time my cat, then the day after my b-day my kitten ducky gets attacked, then 2 days after that I lose my job. Whats next a house is going to fall on my head. This year is gay. I can't wait until it's over and this crap ends. On a plus note I've spoken to nicole. Hopefully someday we can actually have a conversation together about shit. Who knows, all I know is that today I'm having kind of a bad day.

I have a third interview for this job on saturday. I damn well better ge this job if I'm going through all of this for it. I don't know what the hell they need 3 interviews for but I'm going for a third. The guy that interviewed me today said that if I've gotten to my third it's usually a good sign so ya I'm keeping my fingers crossed. In other news I'm sleepy. goodnight.

Yay today I get my second interview. Kinda nervous about getting the job because after 2 weeks of training I have to do a test that the guys said might take me two and a half hours What?!?! I don't do good with tests. It's all about my knowledge on the menu so I guess I'm gonna have to study my balls off. I think I can do it. I just have to set my mind to it and not get side tracked by stupid things. So far I've tried to talk to cole but yet again my attempts have failed. After sending the e-mail I got a reply but when I replied there was nothing so I attempted to text her cell and still nothing. I guess I'm just going to have to give up. I keep trying to make things better because she's my best friend. She's been there with me when no one else was. She used to be the one person that I could trust with anything and now it's like we died and theres nothing but a tombstone with our last words on it. it sucks because I do miss her, the old her. I miss the nicole that went shopping with me or that would spend the whole day in the backyard tanning and swimming with me and not even thinking about anyone else. I'm over not having my best friend around, she meant so much to me and now... nothing. Should I just give up? Is there even hope in having all that back? So many thoughts are going through my head but I don't know where to begin or how to answer them. Oh well I guess I'll have to wait and see. The future is beyond my control. If it's ot in the cards for me to be best friends with her then I guess theres nothing I can do.

Today I have an interview at Crabby Joes for a server position. I'm really excited because it puts me one step closer to my life goal. I'm so gonna nail this interview. MY plan is to start at the bottom and work my way up. I'm going to start as a waitress and work my way up to being a bartender and hopfully somewhere down the line I will own my very own bar. People always say that if you set your mind to it and that you really want to do something you can do it. I'm hoping that it's true. I've wanted to be a bartender for god knows how long. My mom tells me it was when I was really little and went into my first bar to watch her work. Who knows, all I know is that this is that one step closer to my dream and I will definately be nailing this interview. Wish me luck.

Hey Bobbo, just wanted to give you a shout and let you know I'll be at the bar at 6ish. I gotta go and get checked out for something but I will for sure be there. Other then that my fingerhurts, I was playing with my bob and ducky and I guess as revenge for giving them baths bob scratched me beside my finger nail. It hurts really bad. Oh well I guess pay backs a bitch. Today Arnold came over and I showed him some of the houses that I wanted to look at in Pembroke. I've also asked him to come with me for the first 2 weeks of me being there. I'm kinda hoping he does because I want to show him my childhood, I've seen so much of his and I think it's only fair to return the favor. Anywayz I'm done for now. Oh and I LOVE YOU HEATHER!!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!! I just found out that my friend Mandi is pregnant! I get to be an auntie!!! omg I'm so excited. I'm already an aunt but this is awsome because I actually get to be around for the whole thing. Omg I'm so excited I could pee where I'm sitting (sorry inside joke between me and heather). This is so awsome, I can't wait to see the little one. These 9 months better go by way fats because I'm to excited to wait. OMG!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SO EXCITED!!!

Lately I just feel tired. I'm sick of always being the one that gets hurt or that has to be mad or sad. I sick of these feelings, it's time for a change. I've chosen to stop dealing with drama and bullshit that people have fed me. I'm not going to be dealing with anyones problems before mine. I am no longer going to put myself after everyone else. I apologized to Nicole for the things I said, ya it was a tad harsh but she deserved it for the way she treated me and my family. I'm no longer planning on talking about the issues that I'm dealing with because it gets me no where. I apologized for myself not for the fact that she deserved it. The reason for doing it is simple, We've been best friends for years apon years but yet some guy can rip everything apart. I'm happy knowing that I did the right thing and that my concience is cleared. I at least made an attempt. I don't expect her to talk to me or to even take my apology but w/e, I'm free of guilt because I know that the only place those comments came from was an angry place. It was her choice to disrespect and it's my choice to forget. Matt will never have the same kindness fom me, he was supposed to be my friend and he betrayed my trust. For him I'd gladly give him a gun and tell him to be kind and use it on himself as soon as possible. He ruined my life and my family so he will never get anything from me. Other then that I'm not dealing with peoples bullshit anymore. I'm not going to talk to people if they betray my trust, I'm not going to involve myself with people that don't care whether I exsist or not. I'm tired of dealing with everyones drama and bullshit only to turn around and have to make there lives so much better by talking to there ex's or by helping them figure out what to do with there lives. No one listens to me until it's to late anyway so whats the point. If I have to I'll stop exsisting to everyone. I guess this would be a better time as any to add that I'm moving. This time next year I will no longer be living in London Ontario. Anywayz I'm sorry to yet again pile on depressing crap but it's not happening anymore. No longer will I be depressed.

So ya since coles left I've actually been happy. I haven't felt like a worthless pile of shit, although lastnight I seen the peice of shit that made her this way and I swear after he walked by me I turned around and started to follow him because he deserves to die and if I didn't get stopped I woulda caught up and hurt him. Coles a fucking whore. She thinks it's ok to treat people like shit. The last fucking day she could spend with her family she was out spreading her legs for that faggot. Oh yes but she enjoys trying to say he made her stay with him, BULL FUCKING SHIT! pretty sure if you didn't want to be there you wouldn't have. She's a fucking lieing whore. Odviously she never came down for her family, she came to spread her slutty ass legs, she's a skank and I hope I never see her fucking face again. I refuse to treat people with respect when they treat me like shit for no reason. 3 days out of a week and a half I actually got to spend time with her. Every other day she was out being a whore. People need to realise that I take my feelings seriously, if you tell me you care about me, then you damn well better fucking mean it. I know Heather, Bob, and Laura care about me and I believe them when they say it because they've never turned there backs on me for A GUY!! I don't fucking care who your with but the second they become more important then family and friends I say fuck you peace. So to cole FUCK YOU COW YOUR NOTHING BUT WORTHLESS SHIT!!!! family should matter more then a fucking cock you whore. To everyone thats actually there, love you guys, thnx for being there no matter what. To Matt, I hope you drown by some-one shitting in your mouth you fucking faggot.